Obviously life hasn't been great.
First, results.
My results suck and I felt that I didn't care so much about studies anymore. Not that I don't care, just that when I got back my results, I couldn't feel a tinge bit of sadness and disappointment in me.
Maybe I felt numb, helpless that no matter how much effort I input, nothing good will come in return.
I asked myself why but I couldn't find an answer to it.
People who complete their work last minute gotten the highest marks and the group who put in the most effort got the lowest marks.
I don't know what is all this about, but i know sometimes efforts do go down the drain.
I thought life will be better if I work hard, if I forced myself to study. But then no! life will not be full of good things because bad things occur too.
Now, I think I should not be the one who study hard but the one who study smart becauseit doesnt worth it at all. Just now, I was wondering if one day I graduated from poly, will I move on to further my studies in University and become a psychologist ?
And sad enough, the answer isnt a positive one.
No matter what happened, I think I will start doing a business and be successful like Tammy. But in the first place, I need chances.
Where do I got them ?